Monday, August 19, 2013

Fear is an Option. Happiness is a Choice.

Each one of us experienced pain, physically and especially emotionally. Munting sakit o sakit na nakapagiwan sa atin ng malaking pilat. Lahat tayo ayaw masaktan (except a masochist =D) lalo na sa larangan ng pagibig. Bawat desisyon natin tinitimbang natin ng mabuti para sa huli eh di tayo masaktan at mahirapan. Bawat galaw. Bawat desisyon. Pero kahit minsan ba di pumasok sa isip mo na kung yung isa ang pinili mo, ano ang nangyari? Kung umalis ka sa comfort zone mo at sumubok, ano kaya ang nangyari? Kung nagpatuloy ka lang kahit alam mong agrabyado ka, ano kaya ang nangyari? What if...what if...what if... Ang daming "What if?". So many questions na di natin masasagot kasi di tayo sumubok, dahil di tayo nagtake ng risk.

Naisip mo ba, na iba siguro ang buhay mo ngayon kung naging matapang ka lang. Mas masaya ka siguro ngayon kung sumubok ka lang. Girlfriend mo na siguro siya kung nagtapat ka lang. Mayaman ka na siguro kung naginvest ka lang. Naintindihan ka sana ng mga magulang mo kung nagsabi ka lang. Napakaraming pwedeng magbago kung di ka natakot at sumubok. Mahirap masaktan. Given na yan. Pero di ba mas ok matalo ng may ginawa ka kesa sa natalo ka dahil sa umpisa pa lang naduwag ka na? Atleast wala kang pagsisisihan.

Nobody should be scared of taking a chance on love or life. The road maybe tough but it could be all worth it.
You’ve done your best di lang talaga laan sayo kaya ka natalo. But the experience and the things it taught you while giving it a shot, magandang premyo na yun di ba? Others say that pain (mistakes) is the best way to learn things in life and I so much agree with that. For me may mga bagay talaga na di mo matutunan at maiinitindihan “FOR REAL” kung di ka magkakamali o masasaktan. Mga bagay na tanging “PAIN” lang ang makakapagturo sa atin. I sound like a masochist here am I? Lol

Mahirap labanan ang takot, I know. Di ko naman masisisi ang iba kung susuko na sila kagad kahit di pa sila sumusubok kasi may kilala silang nasaktan na o sila mismo nasaktan na dati kahit naman ako takot din. Pero hahayaan ba natin na dahil LANG sa takot tayo eh di na tayo sasaya? Yung totoong kaligayahan ah. Sabi nga sa isang anime na napanuod ko, “If you decide not to do anything because you’re scared, things will stay this way forever. If you don’t want that then you have to do something about it.” Tama naman di ba? Dahil sa pagibig at buhay, walang mangyayari kung di mo susubukan. Sabi nga ni ate Sonia Francesca – one of my fave author ever.

Araw-araw marami tayong ginagawang desisyon, mula sa mga maliliit na bagay tulad ng kung ano ang isusuot o kakainin hanggang sa mga malalaking bagay tulad ng kung ano ang kukuning kurso para sa mga estudyante o kung sino ang pipiliin nating mapangasawa. Napakaraming desisyong dapat gawin, napakaraming bagay ang dapat isipin. Life sure is full of choices. Left or Right. Up or Down. Yes or No. Etc. Etc. Kahit ano man ang piliin natin, for me dapat di tayo magpatalo sa takot na ating nararamdaman. Kung ano man ang piliin natin dapat pagisipan natin ito ng mabuti. Syempre di naman pwedeng sige lang ng sige. Dapat bawat hakbang na gagawin natin ilang beses nating pinagisipan, lahat ng angulo tinake into consideration. At kapag nakapagdesisyon na tayo, di na tayo lilingon ulit sa nakaraan. Lumingon man tayo, dapat para na lang alalahanin yung mga natutunan natin sa journey na yun. Dapat kasi yakapin natin ng buong buo ang naging resulta ng iyong napagdesisyonan. Tama man o mali ang iyong naging desisyon. We can learn from our mistakes naman eh at tulad nga ng nasabi ko some things can only be learned through mistakes. And we should also remember that all things happen for a reason.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

This Is A New Beginning.

“Taking a new step, uttering a new word, is what people fear most.” ― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Crime and Punishment
Many of us hates change, maybe not you but "I" am part of the "us" that hates change. But change is inevitable. Every second of our lives, change is happening. Di man natin ito nararamdaman directly but change is everywhere. It surrounds us. Cause all of us grow. Everything changes.

I've been a blogger for 5 years already, but my blog was established for 7 years na since 2007, anyway...as I was saying 5 years na rin ang dati kong blog, madami na kaming pinagdaanan, it help me in so many ways possible but at some point I've realize ME and MY BLOG have to grow and experience change. Dun pumasok itong idea ng bagong blog, I know iniisip nyo na kung kailangan ko ng change, I could just change the layout or maybe even the writing style of my old blog but NO alam ko sa sarili ko na I need to let go of my old blog. I NEED A NEW BLOG. This new blog represents so many things in my life right now. So many new things that I have to go through, experience, achieve and even surpass. That why I need a new blog. I really really need it. Hahaha Ok! Too much tension. Brrrrr!

Change is something I really hate honestly. Hirap na hirap akong makisabay sa mga pagbabago sa buhay ko, ng paligid ko. Those who knew me personally may have realized that already, I guess. Di ako OC pero I want things to stay the way they are. Kung paano ko sila nakasanayan. Sobrang tagal bago ako maaccustomed sa mga pagbabago sa buhay ko, kumbaga little by little, slowly, one step at a time ang peg.

I hate change. I fear change. Pero tulad nga ng nasabi ko, Change is inevitable. We have to accept it or rather I have to accept it. This new blog took time for me to start. June 24 ko pa ginawa tong blog na to pero ngayon lang ako nagkalakas ng loob simulan talaga. Starting this new blog is like fighting something within me. Fighting, Changing the old me. Its not like I hate myself today but I knew I have to change, I have to start changing myself, physically, mentally and emotionally. I have to grow. I have to change. For the better.

Tulad nga ng bagong tagline (di ko alam kung tagline ba ang tawag) Changes. New Adventures. New Beginnings. As of today, Sunday, August 11, 2013 at 11:25pm, I accept Change. I am the New Superjaid. 

“To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” ― Taylor Swift